Series – Future Self Journal – 27B – I Lost My Journal!

…the spiral notebook, I lost it! Great, just what I want, the kids coming across it. I do, however, get the start a new notebook, which I love to do. *cheers* That new paper smell.

I also completely screwed up my diet the past few days. Same pattern, I kick ass, not eating until after noon, which is easy because I am not hungry then. Having some cravings starting three hours after I eat, work through them. The cravings take over my every thought and at 2 AM, I am in the kitchen looking for toast and milk. Or chocolate. Or saltine crackers, my crack rocks. I’ve established a pattern that associates an unhealthy carby snack with sleep. Even knowing that, the habit is proving to be a known pit of quicksand I jump into, even though I know it is there and can see it for miles ahead.

I’ve tried literally everything I have read or constructed in my mind to alter my eating patterns to counter this conditioning. OMAD early, OMAD late, snacking throughout the day, three solid meals. I think I need to treat it like an addiction, power through four days of no after-midnight snacking until I hit that not-hungry-anymore day five.

This is going to SUCK.

I am grateful that:

1. I am so spoiled that I have a problem of too plenty.

2. Today is a nice day for a short walk. I walked yesterday too!

3. Neighbors who actually shovel their walks. There is one house who never shovels, the entire winter, every winter. I’ve never actually seen these people and we have lived in this neighborhood for years. I assume there is a disability or elderly or social anxiety issue. They must not be able to afford to hire anyone. I’ll keep trudging through it and leave them to their privacy. I have a ton of cute boots to stomp through it, a blessing on it’s own.

Godspeed Y’all!

Resource:

https://theholisticpsychologist.com/future-self-journaling/


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